Obligation?

This Friday, Peiru and Yingni stayed over. I tried to use the stay over, to lure them to alpha. I failed. (I did pray about it.) So much for Bell and Ade asking me whether I should be doing more at cell or not. (embarressed). Well, as you can guess, i skipped alpha. Miss being there actually.
But we did have a good time catching up and playing monopoly. It did remind me that, it is not so much the activity that you do, but the companions you do it with that makes a great difference.
Because of the stayover, I intended to skip YWAV. Doesn't that just sound totally wrong. You bet it does. Somehow or rather, I was reminded that it really isn't the right thing to do. And God helped me out of the situation I almost thought was impossible to change.
To begin with, when my youths heard that I was intending to skip, ha. You should have seen the weird expressions.
Secondly, it definitely is a lame reason to skip YWAV. Having a sleepover? sigh. What kind of example is a youth leader giving?
Thirdly, it's really hard to explain to your 2 friends that you have saturday commitments for the last... let's see... since sec 1.
God made it such that Peiru had to go back to work, early this morning at 8. Working at Tuas meant that she had to catch her company bus which arrives at 730. So our sleepover ended at 7 in the morning, allowing me to go for food rationing and for YWAV.
When Bell asked me whether it was an obligation to come for YWAV instead of staying at home for a sleepover, it really did make me think for a while. Coming for YWAV and being commited to it, is a choice. Not an obligation. For all the youths who think leaders demand too much of you and don't understand why you need a life other than YWAV (especially on Saturday afternoons), that's not true. See... I went through the same dilemma.
This time, God changed the situation, without me having to do all that church commitment explanation. Would I have come for YWAV if God didn't turn the situation around?
Answer is... Yes.

Short Fridays

The wonder of just having time in your hands. Yes I am here right now, with no agenda, leaving my impulse to decide what I should do next. And this (at least for now) seems like a great thing to do. Usually, it would be what I call "a waste of time". No more attachments. Heh. And I won't be having anymore till next year. To those who can't share nor understand the joy it involves, too bad.
Just looked at my timetable next sem. (no... it's not too soon to look at it. I don't have the luxury of 2 - 3 more weeks like some or my NUS and SMU friends.) It's pretty good. (: God always. I mean ALWAYS keeps my Fridays short. It's the 3rd timetable I am getting. And for all 3 times, i end so darn early. He knows my cell group meetings are on Fridays. He knows. (And i didn't even ask for it. ha)

Attachment

Yeah man. 3 more days left at attachment. Seriously wondering if attachment is supposed to be that much of a pain. What attachment really does to me, is increase the fear of moving out into the working world. The shelter of school, is just too good to be true.

Fisherx

Attachment is slightly harder than what I expected. Oh well. But I thank God that one week is over. How He managed to lead me through this one week has been good. What made the week more bearable was looking forward to meeting Ade and Nat. I enjoyed that a lot. The highlight of the week.

This weekend was the CIA retreat. I thought it was good. Maybe all that happened reduced the fun factor and the enjoyment possibility of the entire cell. I suppose that wasn't my intention. Which leader doesn't want their youths to enjoy themselves? I definitely wanted to. I hope it's understood that responsibilities have to be kept, and mutual understanding to be considered. Fisherx did well in bringing friends to the outreach BBQ. (: I believe all of them placed much effort in getting their friends to come. Seeing the big group that came, it was indeed heartwarming. Watching them play captain's ball against Hope Sanctuary, allowed me to see them working together. During the treasure hunt game, they were are sporting, and supported those who placed effort in planning the games. At night, playing card games and watching them have fun, is great joy.

Fisherx (if you happen to be reading this), don't be discouraged by what Joshua said during the devotions part. It wasn't meant to put any one down, but to help you guys move up. I know you guys can and have the ability to be leaders, to be caring, to be sensitive to each other. Don't stop short of what you are capable of.

I love you guys. Everyone of you who make Fisherx what it is.

Need You

Oh Lord you lead me
By the still waters
Quietly restoring my soul....

Love undeserved

Being loved is the best feeling ever. People live for food, for goals, ambition... I think what keeps my life at the top of the world is the feeing of being loved. Somehow or rather, it comes to a point where I don't think I deserve it. God has really been good, showering me with friends.
I thank God for the people who never fail to let me feel I can be myself, anytime, anywhere, anyhow. Who plan surprises for me year after year. And these surprises follow me, in Singapore, all corners of the Singapore, even Malaysia. (:
I thank God for another group of people who watched me grow up. Who showered love on me, who remember me no matter where they are. Recieving a happy birthday call all the way from Italy is definitely heart-warming. Hearing the loud chorus of the happy birthday song, and the background music. Man. Knowing that wherever they are, they still would remember... What did i do to deserve that?
Knowing that my hp inbox was flooded with msg, recieving gifts people know that I have been wanting... most of all, just knowing that these are the people who have been so part of my life. I can't understand what I have done to fathom the depth of God's blessings upon my life. Thank you.