My vision

Woke up this morning with a fright...

...We were given the list of postings for attachments. Guess what. My name didn't appear on that list. When I scanned down... the only trace on my name was under the category: No need to make up. When I asked my teacher, why am I not posted anywhere, he just gave his signature laughter and shrugged it off...

And I woke up. Feeling a little stunned.
I hope this doesn't mean anything.

Call it stressed, anxiety, fear, nervousness, whatever you want.
It exists.
Telling myself to place it at the foot of the cross isn't as simple when it comes to practical terms

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my wisdom, and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee, and Thou with me, Lord
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one

Be Thou my battle-shield, sword for the fight
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight
Thou my soul's shelter, and Thou my high tower
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power

Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance, now and always
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart
High King of heaven, my treasure Thou art

High King of heaven, after victory won
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heaven's Sun
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
Still be my vision, O Ruler of all

First presentation

Our group presentation went great. Thank God. (:
One down. One more to go.
Will be at NUH tml presenting our research proposal.

Tired

Eyes are blurred by the constant glare of this screen.
Been working on this research literature review for the past week.
Pretty tired working on it. Not mentally but physically.

Night lessons have started
Every Thursday and Friday night.
Had Saturday lessons today too.

I am tired.

Got GOLD!

I completed NAPFA! And I managed a gold! Never thought I could make it through the inclined pull ups. I proved myself wrong. I managed 11! hahahaha.

NAPFA!

PE periods were a thing of the past. But NAPFA test is still to haunt.
What makes NAPFA worse is when there is no PE to maintain fitness.
It's all up to your own motivation and discipline.

I remember when I was in J2, while I was running my last 400 m in my 2.4km run, my greatest motivation was telling myself that after this last 400m, I will never in my life have to make myself go through this ordeal again.But guess what. That last 400m sprint is now a lie. I have to do it again.

I have yet another chance to psycho myself in that same way. Oh but my greatest fear is not the 2.4km run. It's the inclined pull-ups. For those of you who have forgotten what this is, it's a bar, placed above you while you are inclined (pivot with your feet on the ground), and lift yourself up. Only when your chin crosses a bar, will it be considered a successful one. I. Being a considerably STRONG physio, who lifts patients and rubs and massages, and mobilises, cannot... CANNOT do more than 3 (which means I fail). I insist that this is not an objective measurement of my arm strength. It is not valid nor reliable. As much as I complain about it, I have no choice but to do it. Hopefully, with the miraculous physics theory my friend enlightened me about, and the cheering of my friends, and psycho-ing myself that this would really be my last time doing NAPFA, I would get through this well.