Sunday, August 17, 2008

Just once more?

Through a few instances, it's difficult to really understand why certain things happen.
I seem to have the ability to ignore, or believe what I want to believe and ignore.
Whether that came from giving the benefit of the doubt, or insisting that there is something to have spurred the mutual trust, it led on to episodes that created hurt.

Defence mechanisms are created because we have lost that turst, and we want to protect ourselves.
Of course, we earn the right to have that in place. It's actually wise to want to protect, love oneself. But yet, there is still that inkling desire to try it again once more.

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I walk from nothing to earth into Eternity