Nostalgic Feeling

Have you had the feeling of saying, this is not where I should be? That's the feeling I get whenever I go and watch a concert at Esplanade. The place I shouldn't be is where the audience is sitting. Yes. I miss performing. I've performed for about 6 years for different purposes, and different occasions. And I miss it. Not because I can't enjoy a good play, musical, etc. But because I realised I left the stage for good. I no longer make the music I like to make with others, to hear each others voices blend harmoniously. To smile and gaze upon the happy faces of a satisfied audience. To beam with pride and say, this has been fulfilling.
Life can't be filled with every good thing. I only have 24 hours. Choices come into play. Not that I regret the choices made. But I because I miss those times.

This week is my first week of exams. And they won't end till the end of the semester. For those who always wanted their exams SPREAD OUT. You could take mine. My advice is, it's no joke. Every semester is like... a marathon of examinations. With an average of about 2 per week? That's why I declared today as "Study-free" day. (:

retreat

God has blessed me again. Had the honour to spend national day with Bell, Eric, Wei, Sam and Violet, watching some NDP stuff. It's really different from how I spend National day annually. Usually, my family would order KFC, and watch NDP together while savouring the fattening chicken. This year... this tradition... kinda.. disappeared.
Although i enjoyed spending time together with my friends... this 19 year old tradition thing... has... slipped away subtlely. Apparantly, my brother went over to his friend's place. My father watched a movie alone in the afternoon (without waiting for me!!! I thought we were to watch seven swords together), Fang, Ma, and Pa went shopping at IMM. oh... but they stuck to eating KFC. heh. The NDP parade was taped.
After reaching home, I watched the parade a 2nd time with them. Somehow, the feeling was different. I guess this is when i find absence really makes the heart grow fonder.
The time spent together with my friends was good though. Just sat around, slack, sleep, eat. I haven't done that for ages. Whenever I am at home, there's always something to do. Even if I planned to just rest, i would end up convincing myself that reading is resting, packing my room is a form of rest, checking my mail is a form of rest... the list goes on... and so... my rest is still pretty packed with activities. Sounds silly huh.

Young adults alpha is over. The 12 sessions have been completed. And what makes me grin, is my cousin's salvation. I am glad at how God just unfolded His entire plan. This coming Friday, it's cell as usual. But it's not going to be usual-usual. There will be new additions.

Exams are next week. Scary huh. I realised i spend really little time on my books. These last 6 weeks of school, i spent a lot of time on non-academic stuff. I am starting to get a little worried. After all the practical exams next week, comes all the presentations. Then my holidays, which by the way have already been burned because i need to finish my CPR course and pass it within the week plus visits to the hospital. (i wonder why they even bother to call it a holiday when they already have the intention of using every bit of it for school's use). Besides, i still have a whole load of information to actually store in the brain, instead of hard copy (on paper).

The to-do-list, never seems to get shorter.