Wonderful Birthday Week

This is my birthday week.
It started off with the most memorable Sunday of my life.
I crashed the car into a pillar.
Needless to say, it's due to my sheer carelessness.
It was traumatic.
I was still am shocked.
The dimple of the car is pretty deep.
Although my dad has already sent to car for some kind of repair that cost him $40.
The mark of my carelessness will be there forever.
Gosh.
This is the start of the week.

Today, to top it off,
I found this huge mess under my table.
My supposed hot and inviting afternoon tea with honey which I brewed for my Sunday class,
was left forgotten after the class because of the wonderful accident between the car, pillar and me.
AND. with much disaster, the tea spilled out from my container. (which has not happened before). And all this tea with honey was well soaked up by all the handouts given by the teacher - Johnson Lim, the handouts given by Violet for the upcoming CIA... AND THE WORST ABOVE ALL! MY BIBLE.
I can't tell you how much it hurts to see my Bible in that state.
The tea... STAINED the Bible.
The liquid... SOAKED the Bible
The honey... made my Bible STINK!!!!!
As I left the Bible on the table to clear the mess in the bag first which was obviously the worst...
I came back to see FLIES on my BIBLE!!!!!
Can you believe that!

My previous Bible that I used... lasted me since I was 7 till I was 19!
And this beautiful precious Bible which is a present for my baptism and Christmas....
Is RUINED in less than 2 years!!!!!!
I don't know what to say about myself.
I hope this week comes to a close without any more accidents, mishaps, problems, messess.

This is getting really painful.

Holidays? Or not

The attachments are over. Holidays are here! But what's going to be released is...
the results for this semester. And you can bet that I am worried. Regarding which module specifically? THE SAME one. Musculoskeletal. It's the one where the teacher told me to get ready to take the supplementary paper last semester. And I have this sinking feeling that, I may have to take it. Gosh. SAME module. I don't seem to be confident in this area at all. Apparantly, as rumour has it, results will be out on Monday. Hopefully I am able to pull my GPA to something higher instead of on the line. The GPA is giving out amber light. I need at least a 3/4 to get into a university in Australia. I am having that. But barely there. (:
I already checked the dates for supplementary paper. For musculoskeletal, it's 31st May. Please pray I have a good, peaceful, blessed birthday. Instead of one where I mug, so hard for this supplementary paper. This won't be my idea of unforgettable 21st birthday celebration.

Yesterday, after attachments ended, we all went back to school to seal our fate for the next one year. Yep. We have our final year project groups. And choosing which topics and who to work with, would more or less predict the amount of sleepless nights and darkened eye bags. I believe that we would all begin with enthusiasm. (I hope I am not being overly positive here). I only pray that the final year project be something we enjoy. Not only in doing, but the relationship that comes with working as a group. Working with people that we have not worked with before might start off sparks. Or may start causing friction. (:

Tired

I wonder if I can attribute everything to hormones.
I guess I can't.
Maybe it's just being tired after work.
I am irritable these days. But over the same stuff.
It's always the same question that rings in my head.
Making it all the more WORSE.
And when I am irritable, I prevent squabbles and quarrels from arising by...
hiding. Keeping to myself. Hopefully I return to normal soon.

On the other hand, the good thing is...
only 2 more days to the end of attachment.
God has carried me through by giving me the worst first.
And made everything seem better when compared to it.
So clever right?
And right now, with grades all settled and just looking forward to the last hour,
I can't wait.

I think when I leave it all into His hands asking for Him to bless each day...
He has His way of seeing me through.
And He has for the last 13 weeks.
Although I am tired.
And the last 2 days is going to be so dreadful and long
I know I will finish it. And finish it as well as possible.